today get to noe a TP student committed suidice due to unable to cope with heartbreak
and a number of guyfriend say she weird, she "stupid" for jumping etc..

to me..i got nth to say but more of i wanted to noe what is she really thinking and feeling when she is determine to jump tat moment of time. cox sometime i jus wanna jump too..and everything will end..without anymore hurt, problem..but im not as brave as she is..im scare of pain...roars~the determination of someone jumping must have alot of courage as they noe..once jump there no more turning back...it will end there and stop there..no more advancing...ur life end with a full stop there where u lay in ur pool of blood.

maybe there better solution but is there are really ppl staying there to listen to you..
million of ppl will tell u...he dun worth ur love...there still so many guys out there for u..
he is not ur right one..ur mr right will come dun worries..u just got to wait..and let time prove to u..yes i noe, yes we noe, but the healing period is the most difficult time..who can feel it like we do?...yes friend therapy...how long will it be? how long ur friend will listen to you saying i fucking miss him..why he dun love me...watever crap you say...i dunno..maybe by then they are fucking sick of u..they will say every keep whine about the ex..so noisy..

i dunno la..this wat i think..im sick and tired..
can someone jus tell me i dun need a bf to survive..

hais

getting a guy to go into my life
is difficult, sometimes i prefer to be alone..



im weird at times...im paranoid at times..
sometime i jus hate myself why i cant be like my friends
have the brain, have the size and have a talent..
i feel like such a failure..

maybe i really need someone beside me.
to accompany me..

when everything seems to be alright..problem started to come..
did everything to make u happy but it turns out..
in the end it goes back to square 1..
you were happy at 1st till the time ending the turn sour

its jus like cinderella get to the ball and end up 12 am strike
everything ended..but the ending is not like mine..sour
but turn out sweet and nice..
i really wish the ending turn out to be like fairytale but...
i noe it wont happen... (:

wahahha..im back people..i will try to update asap..
and change everything tat i need..hmm

CHEERS~

it has been a long time since i have cry becox of a guy...
you are the second one i cry for..

i never feel so bad for quite long le even if i got dump by other guys before
with u dumping me it really hurt like shit...
trying all sort of method to make u forgive me even though most of my friends say
im in no wrong..i noe i got sucky attitude i have no urgency ..im willing to change for u..
u are so different from other guys i noe..u really show me tat u care for me..willing to teach me stuff tat other guys wont even bother..at all to teach..i seriously starting i dun even noe i have feeling for u till jus now..when all the shit happens..

but nevermind its over..

hmm finally left one week more of attachment. (:

and melissa finally quit the course she hate so much.
hope she find one course she can go to or she can go private sch. (:

many many things happen.
which you dun wanna it to happen..
hmms.

anw im going indo on 27 to 30sept.
take care ppls