当爱已经消失时，不需要有理由来解释

2010-04-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

today get to noe a TP student committed suidice due to unable to cope with heartbreak
and a number of guyfriend say she weird, she "stupid" for jumping etc..

to me..i got nth to say but more of i wanted to noe what is she really thinking and feeling when she is determine to jump tat moment of time. cox sometime i jus wanna jump too..and everything will end..without anymore hurt, problem..but im not as brave as she is..im scare of pain...roars~the determination of someone jumping must have alot of courage as they noe..once jump there no more turning back...it will end there and stop there..no more advancing...ur life end with a full stop there where u lay in ur pool of blood.

maybe there better solution but is there are really ppl staying there to listen to you..
million of ppl will tell u...he dun worth ur love...there still so many guys out there for u..
he is not ur right one..ur mr right will come dun worries..u just got to wait..and let time prove to u..yes i noe, yes we noe, but the healing period is the most difficult time..who can feel it like we do?...yes friend therapy...how long will it be? how long ur friend will listen to you saying i fucking miss him..why he dun love me...watever crap you say...i dunno..maybe by then they are fucking sick of u..they will say every keep whine about the ex..so noisy..

i dunno la..this wat i think..im sick and tired..
can someone jus tell me i dun need a bf to survive..

hais

2010-04-28T05:35:00.000-07:00

getting a guy to go into my life
is difficult, sometimes i prefer to be alone..

im weird at times...im paranoid at times..
sometime i jus hate myself why i cant be like my friends
have the brain, have the size and have a talent..
i feel like such a failure..

maybe i really need someone beside me.
to accompany me..

2010-04-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

when i saw u cry into class today..

im sorry i didnt let u sit at the sit beside burton

and someone did give me fuck up face telling me wtf i did not let u sit there
cox i tot maybe letting u cool down is a good opinion that time

im sorry i cant do much for u..

maybe from today onward..i might not be as close as before with that

group of ppl and with u...so smile life still goes on...

smth bad happen once in awhile and we noe we need to stand up and

continue walking and turn back only when u can accept ur memories..

u might realise how silly or funny u were last time and why did u do all those

stuff...

but nvrmind ytd is a history tmr is ur future...and lets us jus treasure as if its our last day

2010-04-27T01:18:00.000-07:00

when everything seems to be alright..problem started to come..
did everything to make u happy but it turns out..
in the end it goes back to square 1..
you were happy at 1st till the time ending the turn sour

its jus like cinderella get to the ball and end up 12 am strike
everything ended..but the ending is not like mine..sour
but turn out sweet and nice..
i really wish the ending turn out to be like fairytale but...
i noe it wont happen... (:

2010-04-24T23:57:00.003-07:00

wahahha..im back people..i will try to update asap..
and change everything tat i need..hmm

CHEERS~

2010-01-27T07:40:00.000-08:00

it has been a long time since i have cry becox of a guy...
you are the second one i cry for..

i never feel so bad for quite long le even if i got dump by other guys before
with u dumping me it really hurt like shit...
trying all sort of method to make u forgive me even though most of my friends say
im in no wrong..i noe i got sucky attitude i have no urgency ..im willing to change for u..
u are so different from other guys i noe..u really show me tat u care for me..willing to teach me stuff tat other guys wont even bother..at all to teach..i seriously starting i dun even noe i have feeling for u till jus now..when all the shit happens..

but nevermind its over..

2009-09-17T00:57:00.000-07:00

hmm finally left one week more of attachment. (:

and melissa finally quit the course she hate so much.
hope she find one course she can go to or she can go private sch. (:

many many things happen.
which you dun wanna it to happen..
hmms.

anw im going indo on 27 to 30sept.
take care ppls

2009-09-12T00:51:00.000-07:00

ths particular movie which i heard since last year.
finally i got to watch it.

THE KITE RUNNER.

its a very nice movie. the movie dunno start how long only
i keep crying le..like no tomorrow those kind of cry lucky im at home.
the summary about this movie is not tat good but when you watch it..
trust me you will feel the sadness within..even if you dun cry until like me.
hmm

2009-09-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

im jus too stupid to believe

too stupid to wish

too stupid to hope for it.

jus another dumb idiot. (:

2009-09-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

after telling someone about wat have happen to me
he/she say im falling into you.

i have been telling myself no i cnt do tat
it like only for one sickening day only not meeting you
i have think about you for quite a number of times le.

hmm im so in fucking deep shit.
i noe you wont like me.
and watever
FUCK.

i hate being in this kind of situation.
i regret going to your house
and i dunno why is this happenin i tot is some kind of fun, playing thing
but it end up like this
argh
wtf am i doing.
tell me you are just playing me as a toy. you are not serious at all.
can you please tell me this...

对不起!我喜欢上你了j.a.h.s

2009-09-10T08:22:00.000-07:00

hmm attachment getting better and better

enjoy my attachment with my junior and finally talk to bed 4 today
actually he is good when he is not complaining la ha.

and he keep telling me he dun like to complain ppl but jus tat he have no choice

he need to let ppl noe what kind of hospital is like like for example the hospital he complain

before the one near novena. hmm but i think he is kinda over also la maybe jus complain to the sister or wat can le why still go to the newspaper and spend money. Maybe this is him, he wan let ppl know his tots...

still left 2 weeks to finish attachment and go indo for auntie's brother in law

wedding to relax.(:

i noe i will miss my junior my miss slow-thinking shirlyna and the so no interest in nursing melissa , the miss peggy who regret cutting her hair and lastly still got sher minh whom we share lots of common thinking and alot more?haha

below are shirlyna and sher minh picture:

i took them in the toliet and SHIRLYNA you are a lousy photographer!!! (:

2009-08-30T09:46:00.000-07:00

hmm im such a big big spender
today omg.
i spent one hundred plus on clothing online.
haha i hope it going be the last time..

hmm i so wanna slim slim slim down i dun care.
i better be if not i will go chop off my fats.
ha ha ha.

im bored.

idunmissyou i noe idunmissyou ):

2009-08-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

wat should i say.

promises are meant to be broken.

and

im going to forget you..fast

2009-08-25T06:12:00.000-07:00

YEAH..last paper on thursday.
and time to play for only three days..
so should i go double o on the friday night?
or should i accompany hairull hmm.

still thinking about it. (:

2009-08-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

this guy made me walked all the way out to the main road with him at 1.35am
just now. I have to walked back to my house with a DARK and QUIET street ALONE.
and wat reason he give me was he forget to bring his fu with him..so i must walked with ALL THE WAY..ARGHH.

but anyway went out with bel today to buy timo birthday..we went to ORCHARD ION.
we almost walk the whole place..we play with the touchscreen platform. then we went to eat dinner hmm new recommendation for LADIES to go..nice food..jap..after that go plaza sing
to meet timo and his friend. And pass him present. go home..

2009-08-18T01:09:00.000-07:00

im have tried my very best to love you.
but you dun seems to care.

i
t r y
m y
v e r y
B E S T.

im so sick and tired already..

2009-08-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

HE HE HE IS SO SO SO SO CUTIE PIE..

so in love with him..hmm

his name is : Crowd Lu Guang Zhong

dob: 15th july 1985(24yearold)

nationailty: Tawianese

he so fucking cute la..hmm will be damn damn damn contented to death if

he can be my bf..wahahah.

if met see this post she will be like. WAH LAO OPEN UP UR EYES LA..

HE SO UGLY LOR...the socks wear until so high and the hair omg cmi la.

hee.hee. too bad met..i just like the way he is..and his song is woo woo

nice his voice damn god sweet.

hmm i wanna go his concert. i wanna noe him in person.Be his friend maybe.

ha im so thinking too much..let me dream then..dun ever wake me up.

kuakuakua oh..he imitate vitas hmm quite impressive...

and he alway dun fail to make me smile when im down..haa..

I SO DAMN LIKE HIS HAIRSTYLE

and that the ROCK AND ROLL style..

2009-08-15T10:20:00.000-07:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
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this song seriously make me so emo and i cry...i think im going to
be a tapwater this time round..hmm nvm
ha you wont understand how i felt. so FUCK OFF!. (:

went out with relative and young bro to watch movie
JACK NEO movie..its awesome great la.
funny funny.after that went to HOT TOMATO to eat dinner
eat until very full..nvr got to drink my favourite tomato soup today
SUPER SAD CAN!..then after went back home..actually wanted to go clubbing
but kinda LAZY so yap..i stay at home and use com..until now now
talking to him and some other ppl.
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im have being thinking for quite awhile..
maybe it just another wrong step taken.
i need need need advise and the truth.

2009-08-14T11:29:00.000-07:00

boyfriend?..he is so different nw.
the way he treat me before getting together is so much more different.
previously he wont nvr reply me back or call me back.
but now..nah..i dun tink he even bother..
i think to him im just a person who complaint and sms lots of time to disturb him.
if he see tis post now i think he will be pissed off or wat..
hmm..
i dunno la huh..im jus 心灰意冷...im waiting for miracle..
hais.

jus now mr sticky tape msg me again
telling me im the only girl he want and likes. but now it have ended
he wish me all the best and good thing will happen to me. Ask me to take care and tell me he wont message me again..but now instead of message me he call me. WEIRD~

2009-08-13T03:01:00.000-07:00

yeah finally tomorrow LAST DAY of sch..
and exam is coming next week. COOL right
and straight after exam will be attachment..omg..
one month of attachment..seriously i dun think i can take it..
again the life of 0700 to 1500 and 1300 to 2100 time span again
i think i will have not enough sleep again..sad life
but still i prefer this over study of course ha
although i noe im more blurr at times haha

hmm going ward 54d surgical ward..4 weeks of attachment...
lucky last day of work is MORNING. HAPPY HAPPY and still there money to take ha. self pleasure (:

i realise i regret not taking the first move.
although ya i did say i like you.
hmm but now since you have a gf what can i say.
CONGRAT.

2009-08-11T11:33:00.000-07:00

seriously im really sick sick SICK of you mr sticky tape.
i already told you i wont patch back wont..
i forgive you for doing whatever you have done
but for now we are friends and only FRIENDS.

and thanks for sending me msg that you say that i wan to see you die.
which is rubbish..i wont want to see my friend die of course.
and forgiving you does not mean one more chance. i cant do that like what my friend did.
i really cant and you hurt me too deep and you lie to me..nvm forget it please dun threaten me anymore i will die first rather then you i think.

2009-08-11T02:44:00.000-07:00

can you tell me you wont leave me

can you tell me you only love me

can you tell me you are forever mine.

2009-08-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

saturday celebrate advance birthday for bel~
hmm reach there about 4 although im suppose to meet her a 3
ha got to cook bake salmon for this birthday girl so ya im late
after reach her house help her prepare food
at night prepare for steamboat..yummy food. thanks to me and met ha
then after that we went to bel room to prepare her a surprise
but when she saw the surprise she did not ever tear a single bit..
not fun.. :) but over all a wonderful day wont forget.

2009-08-08T09:30:00.000-07:00

hmm got home early today and roaming thru the net for songs..and
guess what when rumbling thru youtube listen a song and i cry..im serious okay
this song omg nice METILDA you listen le also will cry k.
hmm
im not trying to be emotional la..but really nice la..hmm cry..LOVE HURTS..
and im going to watch this show call <> in BBC.
hmm they got lots of nice song which i cant find in internet and download la..
hmm and some singers or band which i cant find also hmm..
so yaya..

and

i love my boyfriend.
:)) i noe you dun love me. :(

2009-08-07T01:14:00.000-07:00

dun light my hope up again when you dun meant it.
it make me very f u c k up.
cox i dunno what you really one.

im fucking hungry. vomit gastric juice out already.
but i dun bother to eat cause
i have no wei kou.

2009-08-07T01:03:00.000-07:00

today.
what can i say
b o r i n g day..
my m o o d is damn damn not good.

but after that got to talk to dominic on msn
i feel better i think.
he make me think alot alot.
somehow he correct my thinking.

maybe i should jus put everything down.
forget everything and start afresh.
i realise that watever ur gfriends have does not mean you really need to have it.
so ya.
i so wanna tear drop down cry my stupid heart out.
so i noe after that i will feel really better.
hais

2009-07-31T09:04:00.000-07:00

some time i really wonder what i want. Maybe it jus smth stupid...
or maybe its jus nth?

i realise all of a sudden i FUCKING hate you. For real?

2009-07-30T23:03:00.000-07:00

today is friday last day of the week
and tomorrow I SO FREE AGAIN.
i want to go out..
can someone drag me OUT tomorrow??
PLEASE..
ladies can we go out..out OUT...
its for weeks we are not meeting already ladies..
hmm..BORING LIFE im serious about it really..
im moody today too..for real and ping was like asking what happen to you?
why bf ah..hmm no la..jus moody for no reason..LAME right i noe..too bad that me. :) very me.

anyway wednesday..i gt high fever..from 37.7 to 38.4 to 39.3 degree..
cool right i noe that day i tot im going to like BURST.
BUT too BAD people im still SURVIVING..kuakua..hmm..i only went to see doctor during the night 8 plus..and guess what i WALK from house to blk 3..my auntie and i jus talk and talk. All of a sudden she asked me why your dad alway dun like drive you to see the doctor huh? i was err..i dunno leh? very weird question to ask..but she ended this question with a ans..maybe your dad feel that you can take care off yourself...hmm i was thinking ya right...reach home took my med and woke up at one to have my med finally SLEEP..in all i was total sick for one day but i got three day mc. HAPPY but i end up coming to sch for FUN.cox im bored at home and i hate to get nag and boss around by my mum and who so ever. end.

2009-07-26T00:04:00.000-07:00

sunday seriously i got nth to do..hmm stay home online and youtube
watch alot damn funny entertainment show.hmm
boring life..no one ask me out so sad la..
hmm but about 4 plus to 5 i went to airport to fetch my sister in law back and GUESS WHAT i went to eat POPEYE CHICKEN but its like so damn sad la go there and..dun have my favourite mash potato..nb...OUT OF STOCK LA..
must they really fly to SINGAPORE..or singapore is lack of potato..ANGRY AND PISS OFF...
so end up i still eat the chicken..one pieces only okay..and grape water..hmm
not enough for me the water..haha then after that went to walk around the place and into mini toon and bought some crystal like stuff to deco my stupid comb..haha then drink soya bean milk..hmm nice arter walking around for awhile then went home..and continue my com plus taking stuff from sister in law. alot lor..wallet, nails art and hair clip..etc..
and that my day today

but on friday i went o bar for ping birthday..went to buy cloth 1st then went to park hotel to meet ping..ham, qing and van..it was quite a fun day la..and my parent dunno about it jus told them i go bbq..sad for them but i dun really care.
haha hmm i reach home about 4 plus..and bath sleep so tired la wake only at 12 the next day..tiring but fun PINKISH FRIDAY NIGHT =))

2009-07-23T21:10:00.000-07:00

shu xian is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

shu xian will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Loh an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. shu xian is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

shu xian is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, shu xian doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

shu xian will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. shu xian believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

shu xian is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

In reference to shu xian's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When shu xian slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. shu xian can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

shu xian's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told shu xian that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. shu xian also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. shu xian is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. shu xian's self-concept is artificially low. shu xian will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for shu xian to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. shuxian is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

shu xian is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

shu xian is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Loh 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct shu xian has left lots of white space on the all four borders of the paper. shu xian fills up just the center area of the page. If this is true, then shu xian has a particular shyness toward people and a fear of moving too fast in any direction. In some cultures, respecting people, rules, and adhering to protocol are ways of life.

The right side of the page represents the future and the left side represents the past. shu xian seems a bit stuck in the middle, afraid to take action.

shu xian seems to have a fear of looking bad or of crossing boundries. It will be easy to work with shu xian on a team, because shu xian will usually follow the rules. However, this desire to respect the boundries can often be construed as a lack of confidence and people will walk over shu xian if she is not careful.

i found this quite true.haha lalala~

2009-07-22T12:25:00.000-07:00

finally im done with my blog although there still no update..
im sorry i will try to do it tomorrow..okay
very tired now my back is all ache up and FUCK i have not study on my
retest yet..oh well
good luck to me =))

2009-05-22T07:22:00.000-07:00

i got MY DRIVING LICENCE LE...

HAPPY MA..HAPPY MA..

actually i was fucking nervous that day i was shaking haha
and the instructor is a malay la..he was okay..aha
hmm actually is minus two more point i fail le lor..haha
and i die car when i going back sch..2 TIMES LOR...

2009-05-12T20:24:00.000-07:00

if you like this person and he tell you not to love what will you do?
he give the reason that make you speechless but it the past already..
so will you still like him?

when you realise you still cant forget ur ex what will you do?
and you keep going back and see his photo and the feeling of wanting him back is strong
what will you do...?

he like you but you dunno whether you like him not..so you let him wait..
and now that he have gave up on you..should you be happy??

2009-04-24T10:43:00.000-07:00

FUCKING HELL
WTH
WTF
WT..

WHY IT ALWAY HAPPEN TO ME..
i should be playing and in the end i ended up
get cheat again..hmm
haha im stupid stupid stupid stupid

im nth to any one really. =)
2.10 am now..
im still nt sleeping

2009-04-20T10:02:00.000-07:00

FUCK..
im so damn into online shopping and those thing make my hand itch la..
walau for example i saw a back pack...the print is black and white hearts(http://www.urban-luxurious.blogspot.com/)..
damn it la hmm
then still got what hmm La Eau 3D effect glittery pencil 5 dollars lei(http://vivicreation-beauty.blogspot.com/)
and this bag too (http://tw.f2.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/b46783180?u=a0915969885)
hmm and my jelly camera is coming soon lalala~
so happy...
new camera new camera..
new picture...
hmm take with lots and lots of ppl...
im bored and lame haha
sian
hais..i love bf

2009-04-15T14:09:00.000-07:00

change blog skin again wahahaha
i like this song la..dame so no link
and is 5:10 am and fuck im still not sleeping..
what is happening to me..nb..
hmm later still got sch things to do..SIAN
4 plus start lor dunno what time will end..
im having flu+cough= die
arghh..bored bored ytd went to eat steam boat
erm..i think i better go sleep le..if not anyone know i now still nvr sleep
esp father he fucking going to k me le..
i cant tahan his nag..

2009-03-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

What type of personality do you have?

Kind and GentleYour kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What's your personality love style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

taking all this test..
actually quite true la..but then see le i also dunno what to do with him
can i jus say give it a break...but fuck i scare i will regret it..but i really cnt take it le..how
shit man...hmm im so confused his birthday this coming monday but im not going to celebrate with him..going to give him his present on sat..hope he is free hmm
he need return my umbrella too..
hmm who can help me man.. ahhhhhhhhhh

2009-02-19T06:16:00.000-08:00

this saturday going to watch movie with ladies..
hmm watching he just not into you..

thinking of this title
i think of me and john..
are we really tgt.
after a few week of dating
i have been thinking whether he really that into me..
or should i say he is the one for me
maybe is because i to sticky to him...
and im thinking whether i like him
so i keep wanna stick with him or because i just felt like having a bf.
hmm i feel so shit...
arghh
i dunno..
this few day felt so hesitant..
i feel so ahhh upset..i dunno wat im thinking..maybe
i should jus cry and let it out and forget eveything..
or should i jus gobble down dozens of beers and knock out and sleep
and tomorrow morning treat it as a stupid dream of mine again.
ha ha ha...

=)
当爱已经消失时，不需要有理由来解释

2009-02-18T01:05:00.000-08:00

WAHAHAHAHAH
finally exam over over OVER...
i wan to go out play...
i wan go holiday..
but for now i want go sleep tired la..
quite a few days not enough sleep..hmm

ladiess ask me out or can we go sentosa someday later??
hahaha

hmm just now go facebook..and i see smth about my birthday meaning..

You are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You are gifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out. Your Love, Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can't really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic.

2009-02-09T18:57:00.000-08:00

i wan go holiday la.
anywhere also can..ladies can we go one day tour or wad so ever..
im so bored in singapore le..hmm
=)

exam is like the day after tomorrow and all i think is holiday and go out play..
i haven really study yet..i noe i should but very relectant la.
when got mood study really study when no mood the book will jus stare at me and i stare at it.
hai wat should i do..
arghhh

anw ytd moon is bright and very round..
i sat at balcony and see the moon and star..
enjoy the breeze of the night..woo nice..if can see with ladies even better..
haa but we will end up taking photos again..
ha gtg and study child bearing which is a module without any hint for exam SHIT.

2009-02-08T18:17:00.000-08:00

saturday went out my ladies..
happy happy wahahha
went to eat then shop abit i bought 2 shirt for me and auntie haha
and finally im a member of punk star kuakua.. =D
anyway i spent choosing the shirt in the shop very long and laopo was like okay already nt.
hee. hee.
=P
hmm then after that we went to balcony and i order a super yucky drink..
watermelon and strawberry..hmm have the taste of chocolate..hmm weird.
hmm after that we took photos there [want see photo go laopo blog see]
going to about 9 we all went off..john came and fetch me home and soon bian send laopo they
all go laopo home..wahahah
after laopo they all left. John send me home on the way he told me he going thailand.
good for him..hai and we stay in the car chit chat about 30 min then i finally go home.
ha..that a wonderful day cause finally all of the ladies meet up.
haa..hope next time we could meet up tgt again =))

o..ya exam is round the corner..so peeps jiayou and study..let play hard after exam..or shall we go on a small holiday at bali, bintan..or whatsoever.. hee.

ps.. :metilda neo i update le hor..my blog is not dead already okay. bite haa =))

2008-12-28T23:27:00.000-08:00

OooOOoo..my tag box is soooooo
QUIET...

im freaking bored..
in sch today so early jus to wait for my stupid wound exam..
SIAN

2008-12-25T23:47:00.000-08:00

life as you see through life
you will see that there is so much more that we dont understand
and the only think that we really know
is things dont alway go the way we planned.

2008-12-25T20:23:00.000-08:00

omg..

i have swollen left eye, flu and abit fever..dame it..

lucky today at home no need go back sch if not..

sian 1/2

haha

ytd went out wif my cousin and my family..

we went paya lebar the warehouse sale there...

i bought two kappa shoes..and BAG

haha

surprise mum nvr say cnt buy bag

nei nei nei bubu..

hmm then after tat went to bedok..

eat dinner..buy abit of thing and rush home watch

little nonya..

my whole family is somehow obsess wif this show..really..

haa and while watching that show i was talking to andre..the scary tattoo man..

haha..

then after tat sleep.

nth much lor..

i nvr go Christmas party with my ladies due to sever diarria

sian and my present is stuck at ginn house..

ohya ohya..
their present..i decided to do smth..abit special..so paisei my ladies..

present will come in a surprise and special i guess..haha..

below is the photo i took when i go soccer match..blurr photo anyway haha

dun mind ah..

all this photo is from start to the end of match..

i love to watch another live match again..

even thought i might to go early to grab a

nice seat..hahah

2008-12-20T05:29:00.000-08:00

AS DAY BY DAY GOES..

i find that im thinking about david
hmm..trying forget him ahh..
but dun seem to be successful lei..
sian..and i dunno wat he thinks about me haa
he still not back at singapore dunno real a not
haa.
am i thinking too much..
i think i think..i will just let it go huh..

i really dunno wat im thinking..
im so f up wif myself really..
HAI...
anw today i went to help auntie work again due to one of the temp lazy
dun wan go work dame him..
so i need reach there by 8.30..
hmm morning mood not so good anw..
quite black face..and it piss my family off haa..
after work we realise we almost get LOCK in the sch lucky
we found a way out if not we will need to stay there till monday(stupid evil auntie lock us up)
after that went to pray my grandmother..and stay there talk with all my auntie
they talk about the past and make me laugh until i cry lor
so buay tahan them one..they can be seriously dangerous if they joke..
so stay there till 6 plus..and went to telok banga(i think this how the place name spell) eat..
food there not bad la..quite alot of ppl..hee
overall today quite HAPPY COX FINALLY GOT MY KOREAN DRAMA
yeah hahah..
and this blog is filling wif all sort of my nonsense..
arghh..
how can i change it..maybe can make this blog into a medical blog huhh..
haa..but im lazy to update
sorry.
haha

2008-12-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

i let go of the opportunity to be wif you..

or is it fate tat say we should not be tgt..

or was it me who spoilt every thing

nvr contact you, nvr check the blog we have.

and in there have thing you wanna tell me

but i did not see it.

now it like too late le right

everything is the past.

i regret really.

but it like i deserve it.

i still love you

i think...

2008-12-14T04:29:00.000-08:00

I KNOW I SHOULD CARRY ON WITH MY LIFE

IM REALLY THINKING TOO MUCH YA...

2008-12-14T02:01:00.000-08:00

went to batam ytd was kinda tiring and fun..
HAHAHA...

bought lots of stuff
eat alot of food..ESP THE INDO FOOD..
omg it freaking nice man..
the chilli..wah kao it like bom in ur mouth..
think of it now make me hungry haha
but serious need improve on the food will be like
the saltiness and sweetness..
they put alot..alot..the drink i had during dinner was call es holland if i
nvr rmb wrongly..
it taste like chendol..but is very very sweet due to the a huge amount of gula in there
but over all it nice..
haha.

hmm maybe ladies we can go there together or wat..
it fun i got the tour guide contact so i can jus call her and we arrange a day or two fun there
and shop and play..
hmm..thing there is quite cheap too.
so we can spent money like millionaire there wahahaha
or ladies you guys and go with boyfriend..haa.

hmm..i bought polo-t again i bought one for someone too..
wahahah..that will be his birthday present hmm and christmas too haha
bleah.
i think i have nth much to do huhh..
so crap around the area hmm hee..
photo will be uploaded. YEAH
CHEERS~

2008-12-11T06:12:00.000-08:00

SCH TODAY SUCKS..
everything sucks..
i sucks..

I WAN TO NOE WAD FUCKING HELL REALLY HAPPEN TO ME.
WHAT REALLY HAPPEN IN MY LIFE
it so 360 degree change..
i have no more tears le..

if any of you ppl out there are unhappy or dislike me jus tell me at my face..
i will try to change..cox i miss being wif you guys..
really, believe it or not up to you
WAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAH
BLEAH..

mr whoever when are you coming back.
im waiting lor..
you promise say wan bring back bubblegum and my BELATED present
kao alway bluff me de...
arghh

im crazy i noe but

i r e a l l y dam-e miss you

2008-12-09T05:53:00.000-08:00

MY LIFE IS IN TOTAL MADNESS..

when are you coming back la.
haix..
I WAN BUBBLEGUM...
i WAN BLOW BIG BIG BUBBLE.

I WAN MY PRESENT.
HMM..

i wan go out...
i wan go play..
i wan to get out OF THIS BOODLY HOUSE.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

2008-12-07T06:50:00.000-08:00

it have been a long time since i have update my blog le..

i think i have change..my life have change..
alot of things happen..
like i become more quiet and not like last time freaking noisy..
grandfather past away at the last day of my hongkong trip.
i keep changing my phone num.
i become more and more random.
i spent long hours at home.
a total slacker with no tots of studying..
watch taiwan drama show.
buying more stuff which i dun need
creativity goin to become zero soon..

trying to be more up to date with all of ladies stuff
meeting up alot of friends i noe in net.
did bad things..for example bbq which led to a hole on the table

hmm..
dunno wad to say le..
hai..my life sucks..
i hate books..
i hate myself for not being who i am..
but i noe i like him.
ha

2008-10-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

liking a person is easy..
saying it out is difficult...
letting him noe you like him is fear..

AHHHHHHH
WAD SHOULD I DO..
oya very long nvr update cox..IM
DAME
LAZY..WHAHAHHHA

死了，我好像喜欢上你了
是真的啦！！！

2008-10-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

mermaid and tinkerbell..cute right..
hmm..the stupid machine eat my money la..
dame it..angry..arghhh

this wad i bought today..a froggy mouse and anderson ice..
rum and rasin/ strawberry and cream..
hmm not bad la the ice cream..but cost 6 bucks..=X

YEAH i love clouds...
is there such things as clouds grazing..
even though i like to star graze too..=D

singapore flyer..when can i go for a ride..
even though is kinda expensive.. hmmm

anyway..tomorrow start sch le..
very excited cause almost all the teacher change..except for miss koh..
haa..it quite smtime since i saw all my friends..
hmm tomorrow going early to buy book woo woo..
haix..
aanyway very happy tomorrow sch too..cox can escape from the house.

2008-10-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

today went out wif ladies..
go fareast instead of my sentosa..
which ping they all wanted to go..
due to some reason so nvr go..

long time nvr meet up wif ladies..
quite alot of things happen la..
how i wish i can meet them more often..
hmm..regret..tension is in between us..
smth like tat..jus becox of the mr. 某某..
haix...things are so unexpected la..
not tat i dun wan believe mr.某某..
that he will love my lady forever..er shi..
from all those event and things...he had done
make me and other ladies so cnt believe..
and i cnt make laopo dun love mr.某某ah..right..
hope she have make her right decision...

serious speaking i cnt think..if that mr.某某 break her heart again
wad laopo will do..hmm
dunno how to tell her she dun really talk to me now also..
hmm i really no comments..
hmm feel so like crying.
haix..

fannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

2008-10-09T22:50:00.000-07:00

i think im thinking too much lately..
even cris sae tat so..
shit..

2008-10-09T05:05:00.000-07:00

i think i somehow i like him.?
hmm i wonder...

2008-10-08T20:57:00.000-07:00

finally im back from camp..
the mentoring camp..
and wat..my hand and limp are like going to
drop off la..it so aching and pain...
but the camp was omg FUN.
learn alot in camp..
everytime i sae i learn alot..
actually i cant sae out wad i learn..but i indeed learn alot..
hmm tat funny...

anyway the camp...it all involve the whole shs..
mean got nursing and allied health people..
hmm im in group 2..wahahhaha

we were second in place after all those competition..
haha..maxalon rocks
hmm dunno got spell wrong ma my group haha
=P
after the camp took cab home..tot no one will find me
although someone did sae he will come..
i tot he was joking la..when he msg me..
im in the cab le..
erm..erm i so so sorry la..guilty lor..
hmm when reach home..i went to bath and straight away sleep..
see how lazy i am..screw..

hmm anyway sch going to reopen also le..next week
monday..need go through a again 19 week of schooling and exam
I HATE EXAM.
dame it i need repeat module..
the stupid bio serious speaking i really dun like bio..cause..
no matter how i study i dunno wad it talking..
and this should be im stupid bah..
hmm sch reopen also mean lot of project to come and lots of new information to come.
haix i missed my attachment days..where i get to noe year 3senior in sch..and the
staff nurses there and also talking to my patient..
it like when they discharge from hospital it a great achievement done..
right right..hhmm..

tomorrow sentosa also cnt go le..so pathetic..
so i ask them go watch movie instead hope we can make it..
pls pls..at least relax before sch starts again..

2008-10-04T22:48:00.001-07:00

new blog..

dunno why ah..
create a new one..
maybe is to forget about the old stuff bah.
=D

hmm attachment finally finish 3 weeks of work..
ten dollar per day orh..
hmm..it the money wad i have been eyeing but is
wad i learn there..
i learn tat wat euu learn in sch doesnt really mean it will appeal on
real life..really..when i told them shouldnt we do this they say..
not very necessary la..then i was orh okay..hmm
very 1st day i did assisted bathing..and serious speaking
i learn alot there and some tips from my sch senior..
hmm..
anyway wad i did tat get scolding from my ci was..i
hahaha call my friend to write my attandance wahah
kena caught wahaha..why am i so proud of myself..
...hmm..i realise i still cnt wake up early..
haix..die le la..

anyway after attachment it make me realise i REALLY WANNA BE NURSE.
hmm but first must really study hard so my gpa can like go up..
whahaha
><..feel like it a impossible mission
whahaha..

oya..next week mon till wed is camping day and i haven pack my bag yet..
wahahah
wed end at 1 wahaha
will be tired day..going wif my beloved darling..
miss xiaoping =)
hope we are in the smae group pls pls =D